thoughts....feelings....emotions

Here we are....going on week 33 of 40! I feel like the last time I looked at my baby bump app on my phone, I had 200+ days left, now I am down to 50 something!?! I personally feel like I have done so much growing over the last 8 months, however, like this precious baby inside....I am doing the majority of it right now.  It has been a crazy couple of months for me, and Gabe has been traveling a lot! I have been just waiting for this night that he gets off the plane and I get to have him home for 2 months pretty much!

 I went to church today for the first time in what feels like an eternity, and it made me realize how much I missed my pastor and how much I needed the message that he delivered ( it was about how clueless we are to the debt that was paid by Jesus dying on the cross. He wants us to really love Him, not try to "repay" Him or win Him over with our "works") I went with my mom, but I missed Gabe TERRIBLY! I just wanted to hold his hand and have him rub the side of my arm ( as if he is warming me up) throughout the service like he always does. I know I can take Gabe's presence for granted when he is home, and today I just missed my husband. 

All of this to say..... I honestly can't say that my life isn't anything less than perfect in the grand scheme of things. I am so blessed even BEYOND the debt that Christ paid for my sin. I don't want to be a person who wishes for MORE...I just want to wish differently. As we are approaching the birth of our baby girl, I am so anxious for time. All of the time we spend with our family is so easy to take for granted, but when a big part of my little family is traveling a lot, it puts things into perspective. I am not wishing for more, I am wishing to enjoy what I already have! 7 weeks will fly by and I am foolish to be praying for anything other than this miracle that I have growing inside. I still don't think that Gabe and I realize how much of a life change we are in for, but I am so excited and I just want to shout it from a rooftop! I am looking forward to all of the little things that are so easily taken for granted. My wish list right now: waking up next to my husband, keep enjoying these little kicks in my belly, a safe delivery for me and the baby, great naps and lots of laughs!